Experience my pain

Archive for March, 2013

Late night reading

So last night while typing a paper i was listening to Kisses Down low by Kelly Rowland it that song put me in such a mood. It was like all of a sudden the paper didn’t matter. So since i no longer have a living companion i had to take matters into my own hands… 


Crazy, stupid, love

So for a while i had been in this tug-a-war relationship with Eric and a few days a we decides ago to call it quits. So i moved on some may say i move fast but i say the heart wants what the heart wants. 

Loving life

Feeling extremely good. I just had an amazing job interview. Im feeling really confident about it. My baby is here and were doing better then ever what more could i ask for. Good job good man. Living the good life.

Sentiments of our love

So I come home today to a beautiful surprise. As i begin to walk in the house there’s a sign on the door tha says “I’m” open the door i see another on the wall adjacent to the door “trying and….” i see a trail of colored  pieces of paper leading towards the dining room (he knows i hate flowers) i follow them and he’s standing there with the lights dimmed waiting for me with a candle light dinner and he says i know your trying too. My heart melts it was so sweet. He’s back he had to make a store run. 

Love or what

When is enough, enough. How do you know when to walk away and when to stay when your heart is on the line.

In my head

Sometimes i feel like i’m having a debate with myself. 

Saving my love

Super lonely tonight my guy upset with me because i was to busy to think of “US”. I know i was wrong we have been having some major problems and i have been to mad at him to see that he’s trying. To see that he wants us to be we again. Its a little upsetting laying next to the man you love every night being mad not being able to forgive. The thing that really gets me is he has hurt  way worse i guess im just tired. But i love him. I’m pulling away and he’s letting me. I wanna say this pain is pushing me in the wrong direction. I just need help getting through it. If were both not trying there’s no since in being together. But i refuse to let our love die. I need him to help me through this.