So last night while typing a paper i was listening to Kisses Down low by Kelly Rowland it that song put me in such a mood. It was like all of a sudden the paper didn’t matter. So since i no longer have a living companion i had to take matters into my own hands…
Archive for March, 2013
So for a while i had been in this tug-a-war relationship with Eric and a few days a we decides ago to call it quits. So i moved on some may say i move fast but i say the heart wants what the heart wants.
Feeling extremely good. I just had an amazing job interview. Im feeling really confident about it. My baby is here and were doing better then ever what more could i ask for. Good job good man. Living the good life.
So I come home today to a beautiful surprise. As i begin to walk in the house there’s a sign on the door tha says “I’m” open the door i see another on the wall adjacent to the door “trying and….” i see a trail of colored pieces of paper leading towards the dining room (he knows i hate flowers) i follow them and he’s standing there with the lights dimmed waiting for me with a candle light dinner and he says i know your trying too. My heart melts it was so sweet. He’s back he had to make a store run.
When is enough, enough. How do you know when to walk away and when to stay when your heart is on the line.
Sometimes i feel like i’m having a debate with myself.
Super lonely tonight my guy upset with me because i was to busy to think of “US”. I know i was wrong we have been having some major problems and i have been to mad at him to see that he’s trying. To see that he wants us to be we again. Its a little upsetting laying next to the man you love every night being mad not being able to forgive. The thing that really gets me is he has hurt way worse i guess im just tired. But i love him. I’m pulling away and he’s letting me. I wanna say this pain is pushing me in the wrong direction. I just need help getting through it. If were both not trying there’s no since in being together. But i refuse to let our love die. I need him to help me through this.