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The nerve of him

This guy tried to “Mack” me today. He said all the things a girl want to hear but in the end he turned out to be a complete ass. Trying to get some of my sex. Please. I prefer people to upfront about their intention don’t lie to me. I might want the sex just like you but with me the truth will get you way further then a lie.  

Love & War

So today i was having a conversation with my cousin about our relationships. She tells me she’s tired of her boyfriend because all he want to do is have sex. My response: What???? Are you serious right now? Sex is the most amazing thing ever. Me and Tanzen had sex a few hours ago and i feel so relaxed and stress free how could you be tired of that. Then she goes on to say she don’t know its boring to just have sex all the time. I told her they was doing something wrong, because there is so much to do and experience in sex there’s no way to get bored. You gotta spice it up babe’s. Because an orgasm a day will keep the stress away.

Then she told me that he continuously ask her to give him head but she say no because she don’t do that.  She say he can do her but she want do him. (What she need to do is realize that a relationship is give and take you can’t expect something and not give anything in return.) You could imagine the look on my face. Are you being for real? I love love love love sucking dick. I’m like a dick sucking champ. Sucking my man’s dick gets me off better than it gets him off. She had my mind blown. She’s a real sexual person and i know this but why can’t she shake it up in the sex department. I feel like if there is a problem in a relationship sexually the partner should be able to tell the other partner. Tell him/her how you wanna be fucked, how you want him/her to hold you while your in some tantric sex position or any position. To get better results teach your partner what their not getting. Show  them where your spots are tell them how to get you hot. Tell them how you like.

Or get like me. See i wake my man in the morning sucking his dick its nothing better then morning cum it just has this amazing flavor.  He loves it. Ladies figure out what’s missing and please your man i promise you he will please you back.

Sincerely,

Girl Lonely

Its Just Me

Is bad that i like that abusive rough sex? It turns me on more than anything. Its when i have the most fun. Just thinking about it turns me on.

The Best Fight Ever

So its pretty cold outside me and Eric got into a fight about moving. we currently reside in Boston we moved there for work, but now Eric wants to move back to Chicago. I’m all for it, i love my city I think Chicago is the best place to live but he has been planning this for months with out discussing it with me. Now he tells me we have to be in Chicago in two weeks. My first thought where are we going to live. He found a place. Oh hell no mister you don’t just decide things like this all on you own we are a team we are a “WE” and you deciding for the both of us was out of the question i was livid. But guess how he decides to tell me, during a back massage he knows what those do to me. I’m livid but weak at the same time. He knows how to clam me down so the massage gets more intense but i feel like we should talk about it so i get up and head to the living room he follows. We come to a compromise that no one really wants then we make up. I’m already undressed from the massage he was giving me so he strips down to his socks. He leads me out to the balcony at first i refuse because its so cold out but how can i refuse this fully erect man. I grab the throw off the couch and wrap myself in it. He grabs it and lay it on the across the long chair. As i’m standing there my nipples have become hardened so he grabs me and began kissing my triple D’s then he begin to suck them. He know’s i love to have them sucked. I’m getting weak in the knees so he lay me down and starts kissing my body getting closer and closer to my pelvis. Then he moves back up teasing me. He starts nibbling and tugging on my nipples i can feel my pussy getting wet. He takes his hand and he begins to play with it and instructing me not to move. As his fingers slide in and out and in and out i moan and moan. He then tells once again don’t move. I feel this pain i try to look but i’m laying on my back i begin to twitch he say again don’t move, it will only hurt at first. He then proceed to stick his entire fist in me at first i was reluctant but then it started to feeling amazing. He push in up to his forearm then out and in again. It was different and i liked it. I didn’t noticed how cold it was anymore neither did he. As he’s fisting me the pressure is building up and so are my screams. He pulls it out and tells me to lick his hand I’d never taste pussy so good. Then he goes down on me and he’s licking and sucking, i’m accepting this pleasure with my whole body. My fingers running through his hair. He must really be apologetic because he has never ate my pussy so good. He stands me up and bend me over the railing. Now the magic happens. He inserts his humongous penis inside my dripping wet vagina. I begin to scream out ” yes daddy, more daddy, ooohhhh, yesssssssss, deeper, harder, yesss own this pussy”. I then see our neighbor look out his balcony door he doesn’t say anything he just watched it turned me on more to have an audience. As Eric  start power driving my pussy he sticks he finger in my asshole to begin stretching it. We then switch positions. He lay down on the chair and i get on top of him riding that dick he grabing my titties and massaging them as my waist rolls back and forward and up and down. All i hear him saying is yes ride this dick and panting,yesss i love how you ride this dick. I’m riding it and i feel it; i’m cumming and i can’t help but to scream it out as i scratch his chest “yes daddy, yes daddy i’m cumming, i’m cumming, the screams get louder. The then puts me in the downward facing dog position. He takes some lube and squirt it on my butt and his dick. And he slowly push his penis in I have nothing to grab onto the pain my god the pain. As he’s forcing it in i’m holding on to the legs on the chair. He has it all the way in now i can breathe easy. He begins fucking me, in and out and in and out he goes. But i want the pain so i scream harder and faster he ask me if i’m sure. Then he starts ramming his dick in my ass it felt so good. He smack my ass cheek and ask who’s pussy is this i reply its your’s daddy. I can’t hear you and smack my as even harder who’s pussy is this, its your’s daddy, smack it again. I start playing with my pussy and its dripping wet. I have my 9 inch wide dildo in my hand and as he fucking my ass i’m fucking my pussy it was amazing he then start to pull on my hair intensifying the moment. At this point i have climaxed at least four times. So after his huge dick finish destroying my ass he move back to my pussy. The feeling was wonderful all i could think is, we have to fight more often. He fucking me and smacking my titts it amazes me the ways he pleasure me. And i’m squirting everywhere and he ask me yes ask me if i could finish him off. He never asks usually he puts it in my face and expects me to. I felt so special. So i have him up against the balcony rail and i’m sucking the shit out of his dick i have no gag reflex so the whole thing fits in my mouth. I can see him griping the rail as he’s about to cum. I’m sucking his shit. i’m like a vacuum when it comes to dick he grabs my hair and my head stops. He cums and fills my mouth its so much it starts dripping on my titts. Its just so much i swallow it and try to suck more out. He helps me up off my knees and we head back into the house as we’re walking in he slaps my ass and told me to be ready for round two and i demand that he makes me  dinner ass naked and he gives me a kiss and does just that.

This is our story last year around this time when we briefly lived in Boston i hope you enjoy because me and Eric have a lot more.

My best,

Girl Lonely

Question??????

So i want to know your thoughts on one night stands? Public sex? Sex with friends? Threesomes? and my personal favorite  Oral sex. Can you do it right if you don’t love it? Let’s talk about it.

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This day unlike any other day

So wake up at 6:45am for class and i woke up with the biggest attitude. My god i have never had one so humongous. OK i had a dream about this guy i have been in love with since the seventh grade and back then he showed little interest but not enough to spark a relationship. He knew how i felt about him he has always known. We’ve had phone convo’s about it but that’s where it ends. So i see him off and on we’re still friends but we don’t hang out unless it’s an planned event. So i had a dream i was on my way back to summer camp to work it was training week, and he calls me on the phone and tells me he’s been thinking about me and how he miss me. Now this is where it get’s out of hand the part that pisses me off. He says, “Khalia you know, you’re the one who decided to be friends, you didn’t want a relationship.” I was beyond livid the fact that he now wanted to be with me (upon his convenience might i add) went in one ear and out the other. The fact that he blames me for us not being together now that got my attention. For some reason his brother’s were there and after i hang up he calls one of them and ask about me i can hear them through the bathroom door. He tells him “she’s in a mood, slamming doors and talking to herself”. I couldn’t focus on anything else, after eight years here you come ready who said i was ready for you. I had already given up on him. I had to think about me, i had to think is this the man you want. So i decided he wasn’t boyfriend material. I couldn’t see him in my future. But that phone call through me off balance. This dream screwed my day because i didn’t know what it meant. Then i pull out my phone and see him all over my Instagram. That there put the nail in the coffin. My thinking has been corrupted by visions of him. Fudge.. The things i did today were surrounded by my thoughts of him. And its like i know its a dream but all of the pain and rejection, just came back and hit me. Its like last December all over again.

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Start of the day

My day was not so good. I was not focused in class. Why? Well i did something stupid I know theirs no sense in trusting people but i did anyway. I knew it was a bad idea but he was the only guy to show any interest. I have been wanting some kind of recognition from someone, some kind of affection.

Signed,

Lonely4Life